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Saturday 3/31/12 5-HTP at 10:15pm, bed at 11:50pm didn't practice awareness
DR 3:47
WBTB 3:47 - 4:21 didn't fall asleep till 5:20 (cat going potty)
Woke up at 7:15 from DILD + 5 DEILDs Each about 5min long
For WBTB WILD I visualize being at beer pub with mom, dad, and two others. I recall the tables, people, green leaves on a tree, glasses with beer.
Then I fall asleep and have a DILD.
DILD
At home on RD10. I'm hugging and kissing my parents. My dad's cheek has a 5o'clock shadow. We are in a hallway, light are on. Then I'm on front balcony looking out (or maybe through my brothers room window). It's at night and everything is shining under moonlight, as if it was covered by ice. (EDIT: I thught for long time what it reminds me of, and I figured it out today - it has colors, beauty and misticism of Hyu's avatar pic.) I trick my mind into making everything more focused by saying 'Look how is everything so detailed', although it wasn't. In that moment it gets very vivid and focused in shades of black, grey and blue, shiny with ice surface. beautiful.
I'm on my balcony. It's daytime. So crisp and focused, I think it's WL. I do a bunch of RCs. First time I do 'nose plug' RC, although I have never practiced it. I can breathe. But I'm not 100% sure. Doesn't stop me from jumping off the balcony to fly.
Not sure if this is the same LD or a separate one. - I'm on balcony to a street. I know that in my previous LD was daytime and I wonder, why is it night. I say it and in little while the sun is coming up. I'm trying to go to the moon from the backyard. I find it on the skies and take aim. I think I wake up.
DEILD 1
I'm on a sidewalk of a major city. I see tall modern buildings on the left. Bunch of DCs. I ask two of them, one man and then one woman 'Excuse me mam, sir, what is this town, err, city?' I'm so nervous talking, I fumble with words. One of them says Philadelphia.
A bus pulls up to the sidewalk. I'm so scared as it's turning towards us, because its huge, like 3 buses on top of each other. Menacing, white metal, heavy looking. I walk on a sidewalk among lots of DCs. From the left is an exit from a bus depot? Big machines are coming out of there from behind big black rubber flaps, so you don't see something is coming until you are close to it. I'm scared to walk by, so I don't get run over.
Note sure if this is the same LD or another one. >> I'm in a building. Me and another person or two plus our guide are hovering on top of some very tall furniture - couple of stories high. He is shoving us this so we can decide, what kind of a tour we want. I see a window, open it, pull away the screen and fly out. I feel so free. Not sure if it was here, but at one point I jumped off a tall building although I was not sure, that I can fly. Just inches from sidewalk my fall changed to a glide above ground.
***I wake up, (was I sleeping on my back and right shoulder) and remember not to move. I wait to enter another LD.
DEILD 2
I'm on a river bank. Decide to swim across. Water is yellowish. Someone else is in the water. I get out on other side. There is a area fenced off by chain link fence. Some bikers are watching two of them fight, as if in a rink. I decide to try my powers and take the place of one guy to fight the bigger one. The ground is slippery from spilled beer. I think they are pouring beer at each other. I ask where is my beer. One of them brings two big, classical beer glasses filled with what looks like lager. But he takes a drink from them so I say to forget it. I don't know how to fight this guy. >> I'm in a building/shack next to this fight field. I ask a cute biker if he wants to have sx. He says sure and we start to undress. We are almost there, but I wake up.
DEILD 3
I'm back with the biker. He doesn't want to go on, because he doesn't want to wake up again. I walk over to a group of 2-3 bikers, one is a cop in blue uniform and tell them I just broke up with my boyfriend, if they want to continue where he left off. Things start to happen, but I wake up again.
DEILD 4
I'm flying inside the museum. Lots of rooms and people. I realized a few moments past by and suddenly everything is focused. I realize, this is what people mean about dream getting focused after a minute or two. Looking for a window to get out, but can't find any. I realize, I can get out by getting lucid by looking at something moving towards me. I find a boy sitting on a floor playing with a train. I sit down and we pass the train between us, while I stare at it when it's coming towards me.
DEILD 5
I'm hovering over a street with other DCs. I ask out loud to see my grandma. One DC separates from others and flies to me. She is smiling, but her face is changing from a mummy to a girl of maybe 20 years of age. I ask her if it's really her and she assures me yes. But I'm pretty sure it's not.

***In one of the LDs I was able to only whisper. Rest of them I was shouting***
***In one of the LDs I signed my full name without any problem and then was able to read it***
***In most of them, I kept saying to myself loud 'I'm dreaming' to keep myself aware***
***First time 'nose plug' RC. Feels great to breathe through pinched nose.***

Each transition - when woke up from LD - was the most awesome part of the whole thing. I realized, I can get a headrush by looking at something moving towards me and then tilting my head forward or back. (This head tilt is recurring thing from couple weeks ago, when I realized in regular dream, that I can get lucid this way.)
So I looked at the street hoping for a car to come by - and it did, looking at a toy train when playing with a boy, looking at starfield in hyperspace on TV. When this field was going sideways, I made it change direction so it flies at me. Also was able to recall smell from previous LD to help induce another one.

2/27/12 Monday

I'm on bus in NY. I look at a piece of paper in my pocket and it says I need to get off at Bonhomme & Claire. I ask people around me to help me and tell me where the place is, but they have rude comments and some of them laughed at me.
WBTB 6:45 - 7:15am
WILD#12
As I'm falling asleep, I feel getting closer and I say UP. I feel separation and I appear in hallway outside mom's bedroom on RD. I remembered my phone call with mom, asking her if i can come and visit her astrally. She said yes and I promised, I'll be only in the kitchen/her room area and not anywhere else, so I don't scare her.
It's bright and I quickly start walking towards the kitchen. On my way I glance in the bedroom and see my mom sitting up on the bed. I quickly move to the front door as not to scare her. She comes out, hair all messed up and she is very surprised to see me. She says "you are here". We hug. I also hug with my dad.

1/25/2012 Wednesday

WBTB 4:54-5:35 GM 4+Choline 600 5:17am
WILD#9 I intended to have a healing dream
I'm in a hospital in Russia. A lady walks by me and she hides in the restroom. I read the signs on doors and walk into the restroom. I want to sleep, I turn off the radio, why am I so sleepy? The room has white shiny tiles. Nurse knockes on the door. I open the door and she asks me if I need help. I say no and she leaves. She knocks again, I tell her I don't need help, I'm just sleepy. This time she pushes her way inside. I collapse on the floor. Now my perspective changes and I'm looking at my naked body on the floor from 3rd person view. She is doing something to me. As I watch myself, I direct healing energy to my body.
WILD#10
I find myself in dark room. (I just read IWL how to see - look at details of hands). I bring my hands up and focus my attention on seeing them. They slowly start to show and also I start to see around me.
I enter through a door into someones appartment. Right behind the door is a table set for a meal with food on it. On the other site of the table stand M's grandparents. (Iknow one of them had passed away). They are not saying anything, but they are invitingly smiling. They are asking me to join them for a meal. I walk towards the door on the other side of the room. I walk by opened door to another room, I think it's the kitchen. Two young man are already eating at the table. I enter the room at the end. This room is qiet, little darker, like a room in summer with curtains drawn. It has lots of older, dark brown, shiny furniture and white laced doilies. I walk around the room, my hand tracing the edges of furniture pieces. They don't want me to be there, because there is lots of gold in there.
There is a door to the bathroom. As I walk to it, I imagine a beach on the other side. But as I walk to the bathroom, there is just dark. I look at my hands until I can see.
I wrote these in DJ, but when I woke up, it was not there.
ALL THIS BEFORE 8am.